Monster 086-Cocoon |
But the fact that there is 10 more drawings to go is a good sign I hope I could keep up the pace of the work, and there a lot of things to reconsider as a fact that would make the progress slower; I need to keep in mind I need to take care of myself because if I push myself hard I may got over work on it, as every night I couldn't get a proper sleep just to draw or something like that.
So many drawing I done recently and I couldn't get enough but still not having the proper tools and equipment was still the problem, I think I could do better with proper tools and equipments but I don't have the money to buy them.
My anime hobbies also get me to spend my money every time, I want to by an anime that I even watch I spent my money on collecting the cd's and dvd's; and I couldn't get enough and even have some soft copies of them.
Monster 087-Green Eater |
That does it, I'm really having a tough time got to continue this but its really hard as I don't really feel well!; why Its just 10 more to go and why now. But got to try I need to do it, just a little bit more and I could do it and I know I can. I just need to believe in myself; I want to say something cool but I am not a cool person and that isn't my style either way.
I'm searching something to play a game, like no any other game I've played before; it's just that currently I'm not enjoying the games on the net and as well as the other hand held console games as if there is something lacking on it. I wish the virtual reality game could really become available one day; well got to stick with the games for now although lately I feel so not motivated on playing them.
Draw and draw that's what I've been doing lately so I thing the stiff feeling in my shoulder was because of the endless days I always practice my drawing that even I don't know anymore if I'm really improving or not.
Monster 088-Armored Snake Bug |
Monster 089-Iron Eater |
I really want to be an Artist but I don't know if I can call myself like that I just do what I want to draw and nothing else I don't even studied about arts, I just stumble on it on my way and got drawn into the world of art without even knowing anything about it.
Maybe its really one of the reason I don't get well in drawings because I'm only doing it because I only loving it and not by living my life with it, I lack the determination for arts and only doing it halfheartedly.
Can I call myself an artist, whats an artist anyway as I know the words and dictionary meaning of it; I couldn't still explain the deep meaning of this words; maybe this one of the question that cannot be answered or a question that has many answer; maybe in my future drawings I will find the answer as long as I continue to draw maybe one day I will stumble into the answer and look into the past and say to myself to what I've been doing is really what I want to be.
Monster 090-Mud Rammer |
So just a few more and this would be done, 10 more to go and I hope before new years or even Christmas it was finish already.
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